well now what?

So we went to the horse show, and got the final point that Sassy needed to recive her superiour award in Open Halter. Yippie!! Although I didnt party like I thought I would, I am relived that we finaly got it done.

Now to the truth of the matter. Im really bad. I mean really bad. I could hardly walk on Sunday and even the judge asked if I was ok. I could hardly jog the 15 steps needed for the soundness test, and I think that hurt our placings.

Took the Methotrextate on Sunday night and passed out at 7, my parents and a friend called and I only remember the friend, and that she told me somthing about her horse. I didnt wake up the next day untill 10am with a headacke and was dizzy and sleepy till about 5. (I managed to sleep another 2 hours during that time too...) I think it was mostly due to the drug but also due to the fact that I didnt sleep much on the weekend.

I really dont know what to do, I was worried about not riding again, and now Im finding it harder to walk, what am I going to do if I cant do anything with horses. I cant even show halter horses I dont want to go to the shows. It wasnt so hard at first I thought I would get better as they figured out my drugs but now Im getting worse. What am I going to do when I cant walk? I thought I would be in my 40's or 50's not next year when Im 28

oh sh*&

Well my knee that was a little stiff before the show is now 2X the size of the other one. Both hands are huge and even though I took a bunch of pain killer (more than Ive ever taken up to this point) I still had a really painful night even ending up waking up to cry when I couldn't lift the covers over me, because I was cold. I know that sounds pathetic but I was in bed just about frozen and unable to even cover myself. I almost had to ask for help to get changed last night. How can I expect to live somewhat normally when shit like this still happens. I have a tentative job offer that means moving about one hour away, and I'm looking at places going not ground floor. I'm not even really bad yet I can still walk but every time I have a night like last night I wonder how long it will be until I cannot look after myself.

Show

Well I rode in my first WP class in almost 4 years! Had a good ride got 4th out of about 14, and could have been higher if we didnt screw up the back up. The kid got 1st in halter out of 20, and 5th in horsmanship out of about 20.

We were most impressed with her keeping all 4 feet on the gound despite being ran into from behind and being boxed on the rail. She kept her cool :)

Ummm

Aparently the owners of the filly are mad at me because of my 'behavour' the other night when they insisted that I come out to the farm.

After having there yearling run away with me, because they dont know how to 'fix' her. (shes not bad but they are allowing bad habbits. Every time we went around she stoped at the gate. ) Now considering that they told me they never stop her at the gate, I found that behavour suspecious but not horible. By the end of 10 min she went by just fine. She isnt getting her lead in the hind going to the right but the owners though it was because of her front leg?? Anyways as it was getting dark I finished and was just going to brush the 2yo however I was told they were having major issues.

So I brought her out, now its only been a month since the expo, and she was rusty there but respected me, my space, and the chain. (she knows not to pull because it hurts both of us) So I brought her out, and she promptly ran off with me. Now I was not upset with the taking off, she knows better, but it was dark and the dogs were running around. However she continued fighting, pulling and running even after repeted attempts to get her to trot. (she is allowed to do an extended trot to blow off steam, but needs to respect the space, and the chain) even with me putting all my force on the chain she continued to run off. I got her to go better but it was not good.

So now Im in pain, shes in pain and the owners like 'yeah thats what she does to us'. Now even with a 7 months off she wasnt that bad. Shes gone that downhill in about 3 weeks. Yeah I was mad. They said she wasnt listening to them, but they watched me lunge her all last summer the kids can lunge her, how the hell did she get that bad?

Anyways

So the clinic last weekend went great for barbie and her kid (lol) The clinician (the guy I rode with all winter) again told the parents that the horse was a good one, and she and the kid will do great things in the year to come.

Anyways I havent been sleeping well lately, having bad dreams about stuff not being ready for shows, and not relaxing at all. Im basicly a wound up muscel right now with no down time which is killing my back big time.

Waiting

Well things have been quiet for a week just relaxing, applying for jobs and getting caught up on laundry and stuff. Went up for a night and helped a friend with her horse, who wasnt being bad, just had a communication problem between the two of them.



Had a phone call from one of the jobs I applyed for, they want me in for an interview on Monday so that looks hopefull :)



The owners of the filly were having a problem lunging her, that I was suposto 'fix'. However the filly did not have a problem, the person lunging her did. Anyways I tryed to help but its hard to help when someone doesnt think they are wrong.



Anyways friend is at a show Barbie and her kid are at a clinic, so it should be a good but busy weekend.