Monday, June 29, 2009

well now what?

So we went to the horse show, and got the final point that Sassy needed to recive her superiour award in Open Halter. Yippie!! Although I didnt party like I thought I would, I am relived that we finaly got it done.

Now to the truth of the matter. Im really bad. I mean really bad. I could hardly walk on Sunday and even the judge asked if I was ok. I could hardly jog the 15 steps needed for the soundness test, and I think that hurt our placings.

Took the Methotrextate on Sunday night and passed out at 7, my parents and a friend called and I only remember the friend, and that she told me somthing about her horse. I didnt wake up the next day untill 10am with a headacke and was dizzy and sleepy till about 5. (I managed to sleep another 2 hours during that time too...) I think it was mostly due to the drug but also due to the fact that I didnt sleep much on the weekend.

I really dont know what to do, I was worried about not riding again, and now Im finding it harder to walk, what am I going to do if I cant do anything with horses. I cant even show halter horses I dont want to go to the shows. It wasnt so hard at first I thought I would get better as they figured out my drugs but now Im getting worse. What am I going to do when I cant walk? I thought I would be in my 40's or 50's not next year when Im 28

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