oh sh*&

Well my knee that was a little stiff before the show is now 2X the size of the other one. Both hands are huge and even though I took a bunch of pain killer (more than Ive ever taken up to this point) I still had a really painful night even ending up waking up to cry when I couldn't lift the covers over me, because I was cold. I know that sounds pathetic but I was in bed just about frozen and unable to even cover myself. I almost had to ask for help to get changed last night. How can I expect to live somewhat normally when shit like this still happens. I have a tentative job offer that means moving about one hour away, and I'm looking at places going not ground floor. I'm not even really bad yet I can still walk but every time I have a night like last night I wonder how long it will be until I cannot look after myself.